Birthday

My 21st birthday is coming up in fourteen days. I wish I knew what I will be doing on that day. My birthday is on a Sunday this year. There had been many talks about this day with many different people. One friend said that they would kidnap me from my parents so all of our friends can get together drink, have fun and play magic. Another friend said that he would also steal me away and we would go bar hopping. I would drink until I could drink no more so I would know my limit. He would make sure that nothing bad would happen to me and that I would survive the day after my birthday celebration. Many other people said similar things. We'll have so much fun! We'll drink all night long! It'll be awesome!

My birthday is in fourteen days and I have yet to know what I would be doing. I highly doubt that these friends of mine would actually do what they said they would do. I want something to happen but I don't know what. I wish that I didn't have to plan for my own birthday. Of all the birthdays to have, this one is the one that I don't want to worry about. Any other birthday, I can spend at home by myself or with a few people. Any other birthday, I can meet up with friends for breakfast, or brunch or lunch or coffee or dinner or a movie or something. I want this birthday to be special but I don't want to ask for it. :(

I have fourteen days left being twenty. In fourteen days comes the decision of whether or not I'm living. I don't really know if I really do have something to live for.