Growing up. Growing up is seriously a scary thing. I don't quite understand how the years have just gone by so quickly. The whole saying of "Time flies when you're having fun" is obviously right. It's just mind boggling. I feel like it was just yesterday that I was enjoying the last days of summer before I go to high school. The last days of summer actually meaning that I was at enjoying the last week in August before my Freshmen year started and Marching Band took over my life. Don't get me wrong, I loved being in Marching Band but there are some days where I do wonder if I should've picked something else too.

I feel like I'm at a cross road..Wow, I so totally took from Glee, but anyway, crossroad. It's my second year of "college" and I do put college in quotes. Being at NOVA is totally different than going to Brown like Vicky, or JMU like Allen or Tech or Standford, Matthew and William respectively. They are all away from home and they're experiencing that I don't get to experience. I guess you can say that I'm jealous but at the same time, I'm not. I don't know. I feel like I should be doing what Becky and Ash are doing, transferring to a legit college. I just don't know what to do anymore. I want to be done with my Associates in Business Admin. I don't want to go further with it anymore. The classes that I'm taking are so totally boring! Sure I have good teachers but I'm not excited about what they are teaching me.

First semester of Accounting, totally loved it! Second semester, WTF?! GTFO! It's the same with Economics too! I'm getting so bored out of mind with it. I don't like being in the classroom learning all this stuff! I want to be out doing something! I seriously thought when I first graduated from high school, that I could get this all done and over within a year and a half. Obviously, didn't happen. I'm here for another couple of years trying to figure what the fuck it is that I want to fucking do with my life! This all just totally sucks and blows!

Where is my passion? Where is my dream? Where are the goals that I had in life? 

Robert Frost wrote, " Two roads diverged into a yellow wood" I'm at that spot. Do I pick the one that's been taken over and over again? Or do I go the other way because it's just as good but it's not worn down?