Final

Words can't fully describe what I'm feeling right now. I'm torn on what I should be feeling. I'm hurt and angry and disappointed and mildly enough, I'm amused. My amusement comes from Sir's mother. Her comment on my status about the puppy. Sir reinstalled minecraft on to his laptop and well, that's all he's really been playing. He finished Saints Row and he seems to just be really indifferent about playing skyrim. Anyway,  last night/ early this morning we found out that he could tame a wolf so he could have a dog. I got excited! It's a Wolf that's also a Dog. IT'S A WOLF PUPPY!!! I put it as my status on Facebook that Sir has a puppy. His mother thinks it's a real puppy and doesn't want it in the house for when we come over during Christmas. It was a very diffusing comment after realizing the situation that I am, was in.

I'm hurt that when I counted on Sir to wake me up, he didn't. I had mentioned that the Bio final was today. I mentioned it multiple times and had even asked him to wake me up at 730. He didn't remember. He probably didn't hear me. If he did hear me it was in one ear and out the other.

I feel like I am such a failure. It's taking longer for me to even get half of a legit degree. I wanted to grow up and yet, here I am being such a child. Why am I even alive?